star trek 3 starts. we see jim kirk on top of someone as he and the mysterious character are makin’ out on a bed. the lights are off. jim kirk says “i love you” between breaths. there is a silence as both pause. we feel a sense of peculiar deja vu. we wait as suspense builds and the character below him conjures a response. “fascinating.”
okay so i’m gonna get all personal on you guys for a second here
i’ve been having a really rough time lately. i’ve been really down and i haven’t felt like myself. everything in my life just feels really different right now and i’ve had a really hard time dealing with it. today, i learned i might have something called pmdd (picture pms but a billion times worse) and my doctor put me on zoloft. i’m hoping it helps, but right now, i still feel a little lost.
now, as some of you might know, this past weekend was me and madison’s two year anniversary. today was also madison’s birthday. we went away to maine for the weekend and we had an amazing time. still, i know things could have been better if i hadn’t been dealing with all of the problems that i’m dealing with right now.
through all of these issues, madison has been so unbelievably patient and understanding with me. she’s been helping me get through this even when i know it’s been hard for her, too. i still feel pretty hopeless right now, but she’s the only one making me believe that maybe i’ll go back to normal eventually.
what i’m trying to say is thank you, madison, for being the best girlfriend i could ever ask for. i’m not sure i could handle all this without you. you’ve been so amazing and supportive and i will never be able to express how thankful i am for that. happy anniversary and happy birthday, babe. i love you so much.